Day 20.

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Day 19: sigh

Today was a rather bad day. To start it off I had to work my ass off in the morning doing laundry, dishes, cleaning my room, and cleaning the bathrooms in order to go with my best friend and his date to the movies. I was extremely tired in the morning so I was pretty grumpy while doing the chores.So time comes up to go and meet everone at the promenade so I leave. Turns out Kevin had planned for the wrong movie time which I personally was pretty funny. So we basically walked around and finally had some lunch. We waited for everyone else to show up. After that we went in to see the Green Hornet which I believe was the highlight of my day. Soon after that I suggested we go to the pier and chill since we had about half an hour to kill. So we went to the arcade and Kevin and his date and Rebecca and Livio went and took some pictures in the photobooths while I played Guitar Hero. After that we just wandered on the pier till it was time for Jocelyn to leave than we went and waited with her til she got picked up. Then It was just me and Kevin and the love birds. I had to walk back to school to get picked up so I left and got home and my mom makes me move all the (pardon my french) fucking fire wood from one side of the yard to the other. So that is my day in a nutshell...Why I had such a bad day is pretty simple. While I was hanging out with all of them I felt lonely...Now this may sound selfish but It wasn't because they were all into each other...no. I actually felt bad because all my closest friends have significant others so basically now I wont have anyone to hang with just me and Brian. Also what got me down was the fact that my presence to day wasn't really neccessary at all. They would of have been just fine with out me and I would have spared my self the awkward notion of being the fifth wheel. But with all that said the thing that bugged me the most was that I had worked my ass off for basically nothing cause I didn't really need to go. You're probaly thinking to yourself "Why has Alex been such a whiny bitch lately" well I'm sorry I just needed somewhere to vent my feelings and what better place than the Internet.
P.s. I'm not made at my friends, I love them all to death and I hope they know this was nothing against them.

Day 18: Shoryuken

Today's post you will find appealing seeing as I did pretty much nothing. So this post will be really short.
Ummm all I really did was watch Ping Pong Playa and Princess and the frog and the rest of the day I played Xbox and realized I suck at street fighter ahaha. That's about it.

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Day 17: Melancholy

Today I'm not posting about my day. How great it was and how quotable it was.

As the days slowly roll by 

One can only wish they would 

move faster.

As the say, "One door closed is 

another door opened"

But what if you're stuck in that

sombre hallway opening and closing

all the wrong doors.

I find that the best solution to this problem is simple: Burn the current hallway and build a new one and pray better opportunities arise. 

On a different note I have realized that the quality of my posts tend to diminish the more I feel tired with myself. I've dug myself in this mental ditch and I'll come up when I'm damn ready.

Smiles: they've all been fake.

I can't stand to be seen for what I really am.

Some emotional guy that seems to be ruining his life everyday.

But of course no one knew until now.

Yes, I am aware this is most likely a phase, but as long as everyone is interested I am still that funny loud idiot boy that roams the campus.

So don't worry about me I'll be fine...My purpose, I have recently realized, is to see everyone happy :D

Day 16: Half Empty Half Full

I look at the flask of my life blood
Half empty or half full; which is it?
Just like anyone, I don't need the crud
I want the good times to pay a visit

Slammed with uncertainty again & again,
My optimism is tough to hold on to
And the question is always when?
When will the stars align? I've no clue

Half empty or half full; which way
Must I regard the Present of my life
As the fabric is gnawed every day
I need a future of Hope, not Strife

The struggling has been too long
And yes, some pain makes one stronger
But again and again, this is so wrong
It's hard to be positive any longer

I need to keep a positive angle
For sanity and for others than myself
Yet I'm mired in this earthly tangle
Of paying bills and stocking shelves

And making the too-little money last
Not fixing things that aren't emergent
We had hoped the bad times were passed
But alas, not yet, until the resurgence

We need a vacation from this morass
But can't afford to go; not yet; soon?
Unless we slide into another crevasse
Oh, to eye the ocean from the dunes

Half empty or half full? I like to think
That the good times must be ahead
Maybe we need to be at the very brink
Before fortune goes our way instead

Day 15.

Today's post is a poem I wrote in English class for my bestfriend who was going through a tough time.

Palm Trees

We are all like palm trees

We sway and bend

but we never break.

Certain palms must

be removed at times to 

prevent them from bringing

us down.

So let us do like them 

and stand tall and proud

and live through this

storm called life.

Day 14

Today was an alright day. It went by really quickly. In the morning before school I decided to skip acadeca because I was super tired from the amazing weekend I had. Today's first class English and we talked about MLK and it go me thinking. Other than that I spent the rest of the class trying to mess up my friends drawings. Second class of the day was with Nelson...nees I explain? Third class a pretty good class. We talked about love and actually got me feeling a bit depressed as I began to think about my past loves...and nothing beats the feeling of realizing you're meant to be alone. For lunch we had tacos which is always good... We rounded up the day with chemistry which was really boring...
After school all I really did was go to Costco to get some pizzas. All I can say is that I am ready for the weekend.

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